Do you see yourself as a trusting person? Perhaps too much so? The disadvantages of being too trusting are readily obvious. You can be cheated and taken advantage of. What about the disadvantages of not being trusting enough? These are less obvious, but more severe. They consist of missed or rejected opportunities. You may not be aware of these when they happen, but the cumulative effect is a diminished rather than an abundant life. Fear gives birth to death.
Do you prefer sunshine to darkness and rain? Yet I make all of them, and each serves a benevolent purpose. You need shelter from the rain, but you also need rain for fresh water to sustain you, and to cause the earth to bring forth its abundance. You need both rain and sun and it is a manifestation of my goodness that I send these on the just and on the unjust alike. Can you extend this concept to other areas of your life? Is it possible that you need things you would not choose? There are obvious blessings for which you are openly and joyfully grateful.
How often do you think about me? I think about you all the time. I do not say this to make you feel guilty or condemn you. My capacities are infinite and yours are not. I know that you have responsibilities in this world and limited abilities for focus and attention. In any relationship one party will be more invested than the other. In our case it will always be me. Let this be a cause of joy rather than despair for you. When you are busy or distracted or tired I am not. Even when you are sleeping I continue to watch over you with tender care.
“Lord, what do You want to speak to me concerning law and grace?”
My friend, law or instructions are the things that set the boundaries for our relationship. That’s all. So many people worship My instructions and neglect Me. They are proud of their ability to memorize a list of things to do or not to do… and they even take on a new language as if because they have tuned their tongue to speak Hebrew that that is a milestone for them.
Are you becoming like your parents? You may not notice this when you are young, but as you age you may notice yourself taking on their mannerisms and habits. I tell you to honor your father and mother and imitation is one sincere form of this. You may admire your parents and do this intentionally, or you may not and seek to avoid it, but it will happen either way. You are deeply influenced by them whether you realize it or not, or appreciate it or not. What about your Father in heaven? Are you intentionally taking on his mannerisms and character? You are made in his image.
Do you expect progress in your life to be linear and sequential? Do you see yourself establishing a foundation of meeting your basic needs, and then adding to it, much like a large building is built by adding floors in sequence? This may work for a building, but being too secure in the lower levels can limit upward progress in people. Could being too comfortable work against the stress and strain that are necessary to reach the higher levels? Have you seen this in the lives of others, that it takes a crisis at the lower levels to push them to advance to higher levels?
Do you have control issues? Is this something that is easier to see in other people than it is in yourself? How great is your sense that you are not capable of directing your own life, that you need assistance from outside yourself, that you are being led? The short answer to these questions is that if you are in control of your life I am not. Do you think of progress in terms of seizing and advancing in a structured planned process that you direct? Are you willing to view progress in terms of letting go and surrendering?
Do you like questions or do they make you uncomfortable? If questions make you uncomfortable, are you quick to seize answers to resolve the questions? Yet there are questions that require some time to answer. Have you been in situations or in churches where questions were not welcomed? There is no need to fear any question, and there is nothing wrong with living with some unresolved questions. In fact, there is growth potential available if you can meditate on unresolved questions that don’t lend themselves to easy answers.
Have you been through a faith crisis or transition? Do you expect to go through one? When people are fully invested in their current practice of faith do they ever expect it to change? Yet often it does. If you have been through one yourself how do you know you will not go through another? Consider those who seem most spiritually mature to you, or whom you most admire. Have they gone through shifts or transitions, or is their faith practice essentially unchanged from the first?
Do you enjoy your freedom? Is it appealing to have unlimited opportunities for action available to you? Yet freedom accomplishes nothing unless you make the choice, and in making one choice, you are saying no to all others. And so you spend your freedom to move in one direction. Have you ever committed to a course of action only to find that it led to a place you didn’t want to go, or was unsuitable for you? It is not in a man that walks to direct his own steps. Blessed are those who are led by the Spirit of God, for they are sons of God.
