Mark Holloway's blog

God you might as well drag me outside and shoot me now! If you keep saying that kind of thing and expecting me to write it down I’m always going to have someone on my back. I’m sick of it God! I’d just like a quiet life, I’m over being a trouble maker. But it’s as though you purposely want to annoy people. Almost like you’re trying to pick a fight God?!?

Mark you know this is me talking. You know it without a doubt. Yes the religious tell you that it’s not me, but you know it is, and thousands of others know that too now. Now that they’ve experienced it themselves they know it’s me.

Yes of course you experience doubt, even John the Baptist struggled with Doubt. And yet at the same time you know this is me.

You know that there’s no way that you could make up words that bring you the complete sense of restoration that these words do.

I brought Maori and Pakeha (NZ European) together to fight a common enemy, not to fight each other.


HE IS AFRAID OF YOU TOGETHER SO HE HAS KEPT YOU APART!!

(A conversation with God about the British colonising New Zealand in the 1800s).

(I want to talk about the harm you do to YOURSELVES when you remove another people’s culture.)

Come on God!!! I think I’m making this up.

You’re not.

Ok well I think I just heard you say that I should listen to what you say through the trees and the wind and the rain??

I did.

God are you sure?? That sounds so indigenous, or ethnic somehow - sort of American Indian, or maybe Maori.

Of course it can be difficult to hear the silent voice.

God trying to listen to you like this -- trying to hear your voice on every single little subject… it can actually get a bit weird. I could end up seeming fanatical, a little crazy. Wouldn’t it be safer just to rely on my own common sense? Even just now and then?

A mind filled with legalism and rules is not a mind filled with love.

With grateful thanks to C.Baxter Kruger’s excellent teaching on this subject.

God when I doubt, when I’m not really sure if it’s you that I’m hearing, should I include that in these conversations that others see?

Yes you should. It’s reality.

You really said that?

I did.

So God I think you’re saying you want to talk about the things my friend has been seeing?

Yes.

Ok he saw his angels stand up and bar the way of some people who offered to pray for him?

Yes he did.

And then on another occasion he heard you saying that your people are late, did you really tell him that too?

Yes I told him that too.

Ok so you want to talk about all that now?

Yes.

God did you say last night that if I tackle him consciously then I’ll fare much better in the battle?